The Art of Flight has always been one of my favourite documentaries since it was released in 2011. I’ve watched it more times than I can count but just now does it all make sense to me. Put the cell phone down & explore what this world has to offer. Just a little clip from today’s adventures!
•food for thought•
“You know it’s funny what’s happening to us. Our lives have become digital. Our friends now virtual, and everything you could ever want to know is only a click away. Experiencing the world through endless second hand information is not enough. If we want authencity we have to initiate it.” – Travis Rice (The Art of Flight)
•Vancouver to date•
Deciding to drop my life & move across country wasn’t easy. The thought of leaving my close friends, my family & pretty much all my belongings to adventure something new would keep me up at night. I definitely didn’t prepare. I lucked out with having a job offer, money in the bank to get me to where I needed to go & a sparkle in my eye for adventure. At 27 years old most people are contemplating slowing down, meeting “the one” and starting a family. I definitely wanted to fall in love, but not with someone; with life. Moving to Vancouver was the greatest and toughest thing I’ve ever done. I probably hear on the daily how expensive it is, how the weather isn’t exactly perfect & how I’m quite literally across the country from anyone who truly loves me. Here’s the thing: Vancouver has changed me. I couldn’t be happier. I haven’t been this happy with myself, my life or where I’m going in an extremely long time. That doesn’t mean what I had previously was bad, this is just a new life experience. I’ve met some really incredible people. I guess for now I should count my blessings. I’m one lucky girl to experience everything I have so far in life and I’m interested to see where it will take me.
My name is Crooks, I’m twenty seven years old. I’ve grown up a lot quicker than most twenty seven year olds. I’ve had a career, owned my own home, been in love, been married, been heartbroken. I’ve never gone without love in my life, or a supportive family or a hot meal on the table. I’ve been extremely lucky in life so far. Even at my worst times, they’ve turned around into my best memories. I could never complain about my life or my experiences. I am extremely fortunate. One thing I’ve never done however is find myself. Until now. Enter 2016:
Let me start off by saying that 2015 was an extremely hard year for me. I battled a lot of personal issues, relationship issues (both friends and romantic) & an overall uphill emotional battle. I’ve always been the positive “sun will come out tomorrow” type personality; but parts of 2015 had definitely managed to steal my personality away from me. I am stronger because of this. I vowed 2016 was going to be different. Has it ever! From previous posts you know the basics of whats gone on. Since my last post minor changes have been made. I kissed the automotive industry goodbye. Fond memories made for sure, but time to be who I’ve always wanted to be. These last couple weeks I’ve really worked on just my happiness. Doing things I love. I’ve spent more time at the beach, spent more time with family & friends, taken the dogs for day adventures & even managed to read some books I’ve desperately wanted to read for a long time. I decided my next career choice wasn’t going to be rushed, it wasn’t worth sacrificing my happiness anymore. I was done with selling out my freedom & good spirit for a solid paycheque. It’s time to have a life again. I’ve gotta say, I’m the happiest I’ve been in years. I finally feel like I’m free to love myself. I’m spending every day learning more about myself. I’ve never felt I had the right to look after myself because there was always someone else I put first. I’ve never felt like I do now. In twenty seven years I’ve finally fallen in love with myself. I’m confident in who I’m becoming. Confident in my personality, my body & my mind. They say when you put positive energy into the world you get positive back. Enter him. I don’t know what it is yet, but I know it’s something. I haven’t smiled & laughed like this for a really long time. I don’t want to jinx what that is, but I know whatever it is definitely contributes to this recent happiness. I’ve never met someone I could be so comfortable with, be myself & yet never be judged. Its a refreshing, new feeling that I think I could get used to.
None of this happiness would be possible if I didn’t make a leap. I literally jumped into the unknown, faced all my fears & went in with two feet. Vancouver is changing me. I don’t think I could ever be who I was before I made this move. I want to put the past in the past and look forward to this new me who I love. I know I have something great to offer the world & I can’t wait to see where it leads me. This doesn’t mean I get to stop working my ass off to fight for who I want to be, but it does mean all this hard work both emotional and physical is finally paying off & I couldn’t be happier.
I’ll be honest here, I have no idea what I’m about to write. Like most of my life, I’m just going to wing it.
Ever wonder what life has planned for you? Why certain people come into your life? Maybe someone in your life is going to change you forever. Maybe they are going to be the starting point of your career or they are intended to break your heart. It could be anyone, someone you’ve just met, someone who you’ve known forever, or even someone who you simply said hi to when you passed them in the street. I think the point I’m trying to make is that people, or really life in general can change so quickly within a short period of time. Gone are the days that you could predict having a job, a home & someone to come home to next week. We’ve built this insecurity within ourselves to constantly be on guard, aware & fighting for what we feel we deserve. What happens if we let go? Does the world crumble beneath us? Do we loose our jobs, our homes & our loved ones? At what point do you put faith in “meant to be”? Life is hard & I believe in working for everything you have. I also believe in not forcing life. I’m personally going through the life battle of not knowing where to go next. Wondering what my next step is. I’m no where near bored, my life lately has been nothing but adventure, However I am seeking purpose. I’ve always been a “go with the flow” type. I know that life has some sort of plan for me. That I will never fail at something I’m not supposed to. I am no where near religious but I do believe there is something or someone out there in the universe looking out for me paving the path I’m meant to walk. Life is like a book with different chapters, different scenarios & tests. I live an everyday life not knowing what to expect but accepting it as it comes. I can’t expect every day to be perfect, I can’t expect not to have downfalls. I can, however expect that I will make it through another day, learn a little more wether good or bad. In trying to find purpose I’m constantly learning & teaching/building a life I was intended to lead. I’ll admit, not everyone can wake up in the morning not knowing the purpose of their day. This is a large part of my “just say yes” theory. Accepting every days challenges but knowing I’ll have a full 24 hours to make it count. When it comes to work, friends or family I guess I just have faith that if they are meant to be in my life permanently they will come along. That doesn’t mean I expect work or friends to just show up on my doorstep but I do feel by saying yes to every opportunity it will lead me to some great people or potential work opportunities. I guess some people could say I have a Wanderlust for life.
I’m going to take the chance & every opportunity I have presented in front of me to build myself, change myself & learn about who I’m becoming.